The past month has been very hard for myself and my family. With Jon back in school and me being sick most of the time it has been a difficult adjustment for all of us. There has been several days where I hop in the shower to try to hide the crying from Rylee. But I have a very smart three year old and she often comes in the bathroom to tell me every thing is going to be OK. Today while getting my second set IVS I had the chance to spend sometime by my self. The room was quite and the view out side my window was amazing. While I sat and prayed for strength to get through the next few months I was filled with a sense of peace as I felt the love of my heavenly father. My testimony grew as I relised that he was carrying me and would help me get through this. While I wish I could say that things were going to be better from here on out. I now know that I can get through what ever is ahead of me as long as I turn to my loving heavenly father for help. I am so greatful to the Benson family for all there help with Rylee it has given her a chance to go and play and not see me so sick. It makes it easier for me to send her knowing that she is cared for so well over there. I am so greatful for a ward family that cares so much and is always so willing to help. It makes things so much easier. Our life may be crazy right now but I am so greatful for the challenges that we are facing that are only making us stronger.